i will be a mother in 6 months. for 31 years i have not been a child. i have not been a woman either. i have not been a good daughter. i have not forgiven. i have not made it easy. i have not cried on my mother's shoulder. i have not said i need you, but once, and it felt good, and i did not say it again and again even though it felt good. it felt hole-filling. i hope my child does what feels good.


make it feel good again and again.