Yesterday:
i was given the love i have been waiting for
and then told I will probably have to wait for it a little bit longer.
i told a Guide she was not able to truly see me and we let each other go.
i woke up this morning before dawn thinking that the burn she gave me was a fire i am meant to allow to burn all the way through to see the me that is on the other side. And while burning i am meant to hold on to these words, "Trust you are loved and respected. Do not let anyone violate you."i am meant to hold on to one without letting go of the other while a fire works to get through me.
i am willing this morning to allow her to be a Guide in my relationship with the love i have been waiting for, the one who i will need to continue to wait for while he gives me the love in time. even though i believe she does not See me for my whole self--i will have to trust i am loved and respected, and not let anyone violate me, while i wait for love, and let love reign no matter what--to know it is reigning. no matter what.